Stop making plans, start making sense

for a friend

2009-07-09T20:54:24Z

I remember the days we felt alive. The music was loud and we were singing along. The best of friends then and the best of friends we’ll always be in those memories. No matter how far we’ve drifted apart and whatever the fall outs were, those memories still exist and they’re still cherished. In that way, we’re all still friends forever, because of the memories. You don’t have to live in the present every minute of every day. Memories can make you smile just as much as the present and they can make you smile when it’s impossible to do so in the present. “Don’t live in the past” is a negative statement telling you to let go of things. But we’re all alive in the past just as much as we’re alive now.

And for those who have gone to a better place and left us here without them, they’re alive in the past because they lived then. That’s the purpose of memories… to remember what we no longer have and smile.

No one uses the word “memories” for anything negative. Remember a time when you were smiling so wide your mouth hurt and a time when you were laughing so hard you cried. Tell me you didn’t smile.

TATTOO

2009-05-23T01:21:16Z

New tattoo. Written for me by Bill Beckett himself.

This makes five.

bring him home

2009-05-03T20:28:43Z

http://tinyurl.com/c5jleg

Another guy did Les Mis on Britain's Got Talent and he might not sound as good as Susan but I like him more.

bewarecougar @ 2009-05-02T17:22:00

2009-05-02T21:23:02Z

Yeah, got my Hey Monday/This Prov tickets. Not looking forward to a hometown Friday Night Boys show but what are you gonna do? I'm excited.

oh and happy easter

2009-04-12T20:12:08Z

A zillion pics of my new apartment (and my cat) that I am so very excited about, especially now that I've finished packing. I'm still working on it here and there but this is the general picture.

Front porch/balcony type deal with my storage closet.

Front door, coat closet. Boring.

Living room.

Dining room.

Kitchen. Washer/Dryer behind the door there.

Hallway. Framed vinyls. The collection of pictures of me (and my dad) is something my grandma made me for my birthday a couple years ago and that's me and my sisters when we were little next to it. And the five pictures at the end are just things I took.

Computer room. I have too many CDs. Those are just the ones actually in their cases, there's another 500 in a CD book.

Bathroom.

Hanging on the wall in the hall outside of my bedroom door. For some reason I like waking up to this.

Bedroom. I... like pictures.

Vanity area in my bedroom. I have bad knees, oops.

My big big closet.

My adorable roommate Cadence.

Also. SERIOUSLY. Watch this and watch this now, especially if you love Les Miserables like me. http://perezhilton.com/2009-04-12-susan-boyle

UHHHHHHHH

2009-03-11T18:41:53Z

Hello Butch Walker fan!

Congratulations on being one of the first 30 ticket buyers! You have won a special Soundcheck Party Meet & Greet with Butch Walker for the upcoming show on March 19th, 2009!

To ensure entrance to the Soundcheck Party Meet & Greet, please arrive at the venue NO LATER than 2 HOURS PRIOR to doors (door time is 8:00 pm) and congregate in the general vicinity of the Box Office while forming a separate line. Be sure to bring a photo ID, your ticket to the event, and a printed copy of THIS email to ensure entrance. Please do not wander off, as a representative of the band will come to you around this time to escort you into the exclusive Soundcheck Party Meet and Greet.

If cameras are allowed into the venue, you are more than welcome to take pictures with the band (*please contact the venue directly about its camera policy). *NO VIDEO CAMERAS AND NO PROFESSIONAL CAMERAS. Please bring a copy of your ticket purchase confirmation email and a valid photo ID. You will receive ONE Meet & Greet pass for EACH ticket purchased. Please do not arrive late, as late arrivals will not be permitted.

If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to respond to this email or call Artist Arena at (212) 420-8500. We hope you enjoy the show and thank you again for your never ending support.

bewarecougar @ 2009-02-26T22:54:00

2009-02-27T03:54:18Z

RIP Grandma. I love you.

I knew this was going to happen today. What is with me and my crazy feelings?

still i need your sway

2009-02-18T21:43:11Z

new playlist called happy pills?
playlist for the weekend in va.

now complete with guilty pleasures!

stolen from perfectdenial

2009-02-18T20:52:32Z

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I WANNA KNOW YOU...I want to know 33 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine...You're on my list, so I wanna know you better! :)

1. Can you cook? I can make the best spicy chicken ever.
2. What was your dream growing up? To be in a band.
3. What talent do you wish you had? If I could sing, that'd be awesome.
4. Favorite place? My cousin's house in Puyallup, WA.
5. Favorite vegetable? Carrots.
6. What was the last book you read? I'm working on reading a book called Dark at the Roots.
7. What zodiac sign are you ? Cancer.
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Four tattoos and my ears are pierced.
9. Worst Habit? I guess smoking.
10. Do we know each other outside of lj? Yes, ma'am.
11. What is your favorite sport? I only watch them but baseball, football and hockey.
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude? I try to be optimistic but I'm just a realist, really. Neither one.
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? Probably act retarded.
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you? Finding my mom with a bullet in her mouth. SORRY, I KNOW IT'S DEPRESSING BUT IT'S TRUE!
15. Tell me one weird fact about you: I hate sauce on my pizza.
16. Do you have any pets? I have a kitty named Cadence.
17. Do you know how to do the macerana? Yes, I certainly do.
18. What time is it where you are now? 3:47 pm
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary? Scary as fuck oh my god.
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? My weight.
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? Both at the exact same time, that's what I always do.
22. What color eyes do you have? Blue.
23. Ever been arrested? No, just pulled over a bunch and "spoken to".
24. Bottle or Draft? I don't like beer, yucky.
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it? Pay my bills and move.
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew? I hate bubble gum.
27. What 's your favorite bar to hang at? I don't really hang at bars but Arlene's Grocery in the city has the best drinks. Brittany's in VA is awesome, too, even if it's hokey.
28. Do you believe in ghosts? I used to say no but yeah, I do.
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time? Sit on the computer, drive, listen to music.
30. Do you swear a lot? Oh yeah.
31. Biggest pet peeve? People who hang up on me.
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself? Annoyed.
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? Well, I did that.

beckett blog

2009-02-15T15:49:06Z

lmao i'm way too excited about this :( bye bye becoming a teenie.

colorgenics jacked from cc

2009-02-14T14:55:19Z

Name: Alexandra
Date: 2/14/2009
Colorgenics Number: 15324706

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You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

Matters are not progressing as well as you would have hoped and you are having to make concessions - but you still believe that your goals are realistic it's just that people can't seem to see your point of view. You know what you want but you'll only accept suggestions under duress.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.

PERSONAL SIDE NOTE: Whoa... That's freaky.

http://www.goldinuniverse.com

what a good thursday

2009-02-12T23:14:08Z

These showed up at my door today. My new record player and Peruvian Lilys from my dad.

Of course this is the first thing I play on it. Next up, the Thursday/Envy split EP.

welcome to our world

2009-02-05T04:10:51Z

hip hip hooray

2009-01-15T03:36:18Z

My Andy and his little girl Alyssa. Things, they are a-changin.

you can't escape your own skin

2009-01-14T21:11:15Z

i have a headache.

i have an appointment with the orthopedic doctor (or however it's spelled) tomorrow because my other knee is completely busted. like i can barely function on it busted.

i have a couple of crap friends but it's cool, such is life.

my best friend jamie's cousin killed himself yesterday.

that makes me paranoid because when bad things happen to her, they happen to me a few months later and this is no joke. it's like fate forced us together for that reason.

i miss virginia more and more every day.

THE BRIGHT SIDE IS: the academy is acoustic in store on friday in delaware. the academy is acoustic show on saturday at my hometown gig, jammin java. also seeing jamie as i do this because it's important.

do you know who matters to you?

these children learn from cigarette burns

2009-01-09T02:36:13Z

Virgin Mary Garbage

For my long drive down to Delaware tomorrow to try to get to be one of 30 people to see TAI play acoustic at Hot Topic. I really hate myself for this lmao. But yay I get to go visit Ann!

bewarecougar @ 2008-12-30T21:35:00

2008-12-31T02:37:03Z

~~Where is Elise?~~

Nevermind I found her.

stole from cc

2008-12-14T02:39:38Z

What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
got recognized multiple times by my favorite band

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i don't make those ever

Did anyone close to you give birth?
in a couple weeks my childhood best friend/first boyfriend's wife is going to have a little girl named alyssa

Did anyone close to you die?
someone i knew did, yes, but i wasn't super close to her. very nice lady though, it was sad.

What countries did you visit?
this one

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
home

What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
may 9th, it's when i moved away from virginia. april 9th, getting to see pat's band play in seattle for the first time.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
moving out of virginia and finding out how much i actually love it. but at least i got to move out and see!

What was your biggest failure?
lmao moving out of virginia.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
i messed up my knee.

What was the best thing you bought?
my macbook!

Whose behaviour merited celebration?
barack obama

Whose behaviour made you appalled?
sarah palin

Where did most of your money go?
bills, moving

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
moving, seeing tai three times

What song will always remind you of 2008?
disturbia, it's everywhere

Compared to this time last year, are you...
happier or sadder? sadder
thinner or fatter? fatter
richer or poorer? poorer

What do you wish you'd done more of?
stayed in virginia

What do you wish you'd done less of?
moving

How will you be spending New Years Eve?
i'm not sure!

Did you fall in love in 2008?
i did not

How many one-night stands?
none

What was your favourite TV program?
the l word, true blood, house md

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
yes

What was the best book you read?
i don't know if i made it through a book this year

What was your greatest musical discovery?
the gaslight anthem

What did you want and get?
good music

What was your favourite film of this year?
the dark knight

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i went to virginia and just hung out with my family and a friend or two. i turned 22.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
being able to move back to va.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
it was the year of moving away from band t-shirts.

What kept you sane?
virginia, tai, pat

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
william beckett, mainly. barack obama.

What political issue stirred you the most?
sarah palin. john mccain not listening at all. barack obama inspiring a nation.

Who did you miss?
my mom like usual. my friends in virginia/maryland. STEVIE!

Who were the best new people you met?
cc, lindsey and amy were all pretty cool

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
sometimes you really do have to mess up to find the truth.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
And if you sing to me sweet until then,
I may never sail Virginia again.
And as this current moves slow for me,
This much you must know, we'll meet again.
And El, I'll have you know I'm scared to death.
- Mayday Parade

i'm a fall out boyz

2008-12-08T03:03:26Z

The 'Be Pete Wentz' poetry meme
01. Put your music player on shuffle
02. The first lines of twenty songs = a poem
03. The first line of the twenty-first song = the title

"When The Man Spoke, The People Listened"

I am a man cut from the know
When I was young lying in the grass
I just found a friend in one of your lies
Crawling through the dense green carpeting
It hasn't been that long since we drank to the sunset until it was gone

I'm standing here before you and I know I'm such a wreck
I know who you remind me of
I know what you're doing I see it all too clear
Cross the street from your storefront cemetery
I'm gonna let the city take her

I've got emotion dripping out my pores
His head was a city of paper buildings
And so it begins, another chapter unfolds
I'll stare into the mirror just long enough to feel
You change your mind like a girl changes clothes

Hey Brittany, why are you messing with me?
I keep my seven on the list
Tell me how I finally figured it out
Don't try and tell me you've been looking at me
They can't see your heart they don't care to see who you are

taken from my tumblr

2008-12-07T17:08:56Z

Yesterday was the best day ever.

Woke up early as hell on my own and Priscilla woke up to get Britney Spears tickets because, honestly, even if it ends up being a trainwreck, at least we can say we saw the wreck in person. Otherwise, even though I don’t like her it could be very cool and I’ve never seen a 360 degree show like this one is going to be so I’d like to experience that.

After that Priscilla found out from her ex that Petco was taking pictures of your pets with Santa for charity where the proceeds went to homeless animals. We decided to be crazy cat ladies and take our cats to meet Santa and it actually ended up being a lot of fun and it was my cat’s first experience with dogs which she did very well with until a golden lab puppy wanted to try to play with her.

Then we took the cats home and went to the T-Mobile store so Priscilla could talk to them about potentially getting a Blackberry and found out that their Blackberry plans are ridiculous.

We went to this mom and pop pizza place across the shopping plaza that we’d never been to because we were starving and had some of the best pizza I’ve had lately. Not as good as the pizza from the pizza place near Starland Ballroom, but still delicious.

Then we went across the highway to the AT&T store and I immediately said I wanted an iPhone and I didn’t care about cancellation charges with T-Mobile. The girl said I was her easiest sale ever. I was like yep, I’m always easy. Oh puns. The many puns.

Got my Twitter updates to work on my phone finally.

Then Pretty Woman was on. I love Julia Roberts, she reminds me of my mom. Then something else good was on but I forget what it was.

Then it snowed. The first (magical Christmas) snow of the year. I’m still a kid forever.

Then we watched Cruel Intentions.

Then the Fall Out Boy album leaked and it’s really good. Still buying it the 16th and you should, too.

I’m telling you, it was the best day ever.

it's just a little snowfall but we could make it a perfect night

2008-12-07T05:23:18Z

We have snow. I have an iPhone.
Today was the best day ever.

the circuuussss

2008-12-06T15:29:22Z

I don't even like Britney Spears and I'm totally going to this shit with Priscilla just for the experience cause it's gotta be a little bit cool, you know?

GOOD FUCKING SEATS TOO!

cadence and mittens

2008-12-05T03:24:13Z

So this happened.

And then this

Me and Priscilla have the cutest cats.

two years

2008-11-23T05:25:44Z

Two years today. It gets further away but I still miss her the same.

my bogus journey - 11/13, 11/14,11/15

2008-11-16T20:11:38Z

Okay well pictures may or may not come later. There's only a few good ones. Front row + no flash sometimes does not = good pictures. But as promised, I do have tons of videos and a little bit of a story!

So 11/13, me and my roommate hop in the car and drive the hour and a half down to Philly for the show. We get to the parking lot and get wrongly informed about 18 times that no cameras are allowed so we leave the cameras in the car and go about our way, no big we're seeing them twice from there. The security guys were some of the biggest douchebags in the world and forced the SLH and regular line together into one line saying 'The band themselves asked for this'. Jack comes out later and is like 'uhhh wtf' and does a little magic to get that fixed. Eventually get to go in to the meet and greet. Even though I've met them a bunch of times at this point, for some reason this night I was a little nervous about it and didn't say a whole lot to them except for Bill who I told Winter Passing was a great song and he said thank you and when I asked about the license plate that I had given to Jack/Ziggy to give to them on Warped he was a little confused but said he thought they maybe still had it. Got a pic (on my phone which was lame) with him later on blah blah. Got front row in front of Mike and had a good time.

Got my ticket signed that night (the one on the bottom).

I also got a set list and a guitar pick.

On 11/14/08, me and the roommate hop in the car to haul ass all the way up to Hartford. On the way up there we see a HIGH SPEED CAR CHASE! I see the cop cars way behind me in all four lanes and it looked a little like they were chasing one car so I tell my roommate and she says 'oh come on, that never happens it's probably not'. They seemed to disappear after a while. Ten minutes later or so ALL OF A SUDDEN the cop cars are like RIGHT BEHIND ME and I look over and they ARE following this gold Lexus SUV. I get over to another lane quickly and look over to watch the chase and it the SUV drives into the grass on the side of the highway and we figured he was pulling over and then he KEEPS GOING ACROSS THE WHOLE ENTIRE GRASS MEDIAN THROUGH A DITCH AND UP THE OTHER SIDE INTO ONCOMING TRAFFIC ON THE OPPOSITE SIDE OF THE HIGHWAY!! When he kept driving into the grass without stopping we instantly realized that this was, in fact, a high speed chase. While I was in line for meet and greet my roommate went to get something to eat and saw on the news at the pizza place she went to what happened and apparently the car was stolen four days before and the guy had totaled it into a Pepsi truck on the other side of the highway and then got out and ran on foot and was caught.

So I tell Adam about this as he's signing my license plate that I needed to finish getting signed since only William and Butcher signed it on Warped and he was like "OH MAN IT WOULD HAVE BEEN COOLER IF YOU WERE IN IT THOUGH!" and I agreed, it was fun. Chiz talked to me a little bit about the night before because he always remembers me. Butcher remembered the license plate from Warped and got all excited about it after signing my set list from Philly when Mike like LOST HIS MIND over it. Mike like started laughing and just sat there staring at it for a while and he was like "I can't even... I'm so like... whoa..." stupid hyena laugh. I asked him if he was making fun of me because he just kept laughing! And he was like "No! No, I'm really not this is so cool! I'm just like... blown away like... wow!" And then William looked over and saw it and remembered me asking about it the night before and he got SUPER EXCITED about it and was like "Oh yeah, yeah, yeah! I do remember this one! We definitely do still have this one somewhere! This is the coolest thing ever!" He talked to me for a minute while I told him about the car chase too and he was like "Maybe it was OJ! That's awesome." and asked my name and signed my set list since he'd already signed the plate too.

HARTFORD WAS BY FAR THE BEST SHOW I'VE EVER SEEN THEM PLAY!

The finished license plate.

So then 11/15/08, Sayreville, NJ and it's pretty much hometown show for me. Half hour drive we didn't show up until god knows when and met up with a girl I'd met the night before. I did find toastdskin and talk to her for a while here and there. Gina's very cool ;) The meet and greet I filled Sisky in on the outcome of the end of the car chase and he was still kind of excited about it. I was wearing Snakes & Suits and Chiz felt that he needed to inform me he was wearing his Snakes & Suits shirt under his other shirt, too. I was like 'oh good'. Haha... didn't really know what to say to that. Butcher remembered me again and I had him sign my ticket since he'd signed everything else. Mike smiled at me and seemed to remember me but if Mike remembered what he ate in the morning I'd be surprised so we just talked for a second and I had him sign my set list. Then I get to William and I hand him my Remember Maine CD booklet to sign and I was like "Don't ask me how I got this." He just stares at it and hesitates and is like "Then... Th-then I won't ask you then!" Stuttering mess. And he signed it and just stared at it a while and read all the liner notes and such and told me that he hadn't seen it in forever and he was just looking at it. I asked him if he still had a copy of it and he said no, he didn't think he did and if he did he had no idea where it was. So he held up the line for a few minutes while he just looked over it and I let him have his time with it since I'm sure it meant a lot to him to look at it. It was cool, I said bye and went on my way.

The show was good, I stayed at a table in a chair and had five vodka red bulls throughout the night and got pretty drunk, it was a blasty blast. Seed was played. I got a video. All the videos as promised below!!!

The finished set list from Philly. The Homer was drawn by Sisky.

Remember Maine CD.

You can watch all of these in high quality, I believe. If not, you will be able to after they've been up a little bit longer, give it time. I'm throwing in some non-TAI because Hey Monday is awesomeand you can kiss my ass if you don't like them.

For those who would rather links:

Hey Monday - "Homecoming"
We The Kings & Cassadee Pope - "Check Yes, Juliet"
Rumored Nights - The Academy Is...
Beware! Cougar! - The Academy Is...
One More Weekend - The Academy Is...
Winter Passing - The Academy Is...
Seed - The Academy Is...

Hey Monday - "Homecoming" in Hartford. They were AWESOME to watch all three nights, I loved them. No Bill in this one.

Cassadee from Hey Monday came out to sing with We The Kings during "Check Yes, Juliet" in Hartford.

TAI - "Rumored Nights" in Hartford.

TAI - "Beware! Cougar!" in Hartford (of course I had to get this one).

TAI - "One More Weekend" in Hartford. Sorry I didn't get the first few words.

TAI - "Winter Passing" in Hartford. I already posted it, but here it is again.

TAI - "Seed" in Sayreville, NJ.